GAME OVER?
Täällä ei tueta, jos oot sekaisin.
Kyllä on väärin ja ei liikaa,
onko ihme jos haluatkin kotiin takaisin?
Hyvästit viipyvät kielellä ja kauneus on mennyt,
mutta toiset vielä marssivat.
Ovat rakastajat lähteneet ja vieneet aseet,
mutta joillakin on se viimeinen avain takaoveen.
Etkö ymmärrä, mitä yritin sinulle näyttää?
Ennen kuin kellot pysähtyvät
tuntien puutteesta
ja sydämet murtuvat
- Paljaasta, tukahdetusta huudosta.
Sinisointu
Whisper
of a Forgotten Man
I
sit on this lonely chair in a world that is so cruel, so blind. I no longer age
as I am forgotten. Even time has forgotten me to this dark corner. Everything
has left me except my memories that are laced with sorrow and pain.
The
bed is still a mess. It has been like it ever since you left. I dare not to
touch it. There are too many memories just watching it. Time remembers it. It’s
fading to nothing but dust but to me the image lingers on.
I
want to scream and shout until my lungs turn to ashes but I cannot make a
sound. The sound can never find its way through me. It can never be heard. I am
afraid of silence and yet it’s my best friend.
I
fear this darkness but I no longer can move. It hurts. I cannot. If I stay
completely, utterly still then maybe… it won’t hurt more than it already does.
I
still wonder… How could you do it? Leave your loved ones behind. Didn’t you
fear death? The darkness inside you could not have been darker than mine.
Still, I fear death. You wondered how is it possible to live and I wonder how
is it possible to die.
I
know you lost him. I lost you both. I knew you were in pain. I still am in
pain. You let go of yours and you shoved it on me. Now I have to carry it
alone, both. Your apology is a joke… It means nothing. You couldn’t handle the
pain so you gave it to me without permission. You doubled my pain by leaving
this life… If you couldn’t handle one half with me, what chances do I have to
carry it all, by myself?
Mili
